I wrote this a number of months ago, concerning the struggles that we as Christians face in finances. Specifically at this time I believe the Lord was addressing doubt in my heart concerning finances and I know that I go through nothing but as is common to man. May it greatly bless and benefit you in your walk with Jesus Christ.
It’s a fine line
To be in law or to be in grace
Do I pray because I know the one whose name I am calling?
Or do I pray and then because I pray expect some sort of answer
The former is grace, the understanding of a relationship
The latter can easily become law
A prison beyond which you do not know the heart of God
Do I know God’s heart towards me in finances and in blessing?
And hence do as He says I do?
Or do I give religiously to a slot machine; expecting an answer but not really knowing the heart of God
It is not semantics, but it is reality
When I know the heart of God and because of this I give, my heart remains steadfast and strong
The circumstances do not move me, nor can worry
And what He says I will get, I see it easily
When all I know is the action and the result, without knowing the executor of the word, I am in danger of law; of my reliance being on the action itself rather than on the heart of the Father
His heart towards me is good; He is faithful and true and He is interested in every area of my life;
No detail of it will escape His attention
Every good thing, He wants me to have; not because of any actions but simply because of who He is
I am the only me; and He is jealous for my heart
In this must my security be.
There is no doubt, in action I will express my faith
In faith I will move to obey, but even in this my heart and eyes must be on He who has spoken
and not intent on exalting what I have done
If in acting, my eyes flutter to and fro on the situation
And I find doubt creeping into my heart, clutching onto it like a dark vine
Then it is probable I do not yet know who it is who has spoken
I am not yet familiar with his heart for me
I teeter towards law, and away from understanding His love for me
It is simple
God loves me, and this not only must I know but I must believe
And in all I do, my trust must simply be in Him
He is faithful, He will not ask me to do what is bad for me
Whatever it is He instructs me to do, I must do with gladness
For the truth is His grace is forever there for me
To put me in health, in life, in peace and in prosperity
In my finances, to bring me to overflow
To meet all the need around me with His ability